The Great Unknown

It is scary not knowing what the future holds. I know it holds me being a mom, and I can not wait for that. I just wonder about so many details of motherhood. Lately though, I mostly wonder in what means our child will come to us. Will I be able to get pregnant? Will it take a long time? If I do, will it be a safe pregnancy? Will it happen easily, or after many stressful and heartbreaking months? Will we adopt? Will it be international? Will we have the money to do so? I know when the time comes, God will lead us in the direction he has planned for us, but for now the waiting is just frustrating. I want to already be on the path towards motherhood, and I guess in a way I am...maybe I should say I want to already be near the "finish line" (which is really just the beginning) on the path to motherhood! Sheesh! So much to think about and worry about and dream about. :)